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18 Inches

My world is 18 inches
My life is a face
I live and breathe her love for me
Across that 18 inch space

My world is 18 inches
My future in her hands
For I am always asking her
Of my soul and its demands

And when she is not present
As time and space go by
I lose my deepest connection
My soul beginning shy

And if she forgets that 18 inches
Are the measure of a life
I begin to believe the lies
And my world is full of strife

I believe that I’m unworthy
I believe that I’m unclean
I think you are far away
I think that I’m not seen

And so I begin my life with vows
That I must find
Life in other things
And I leave the face behind

I vow to make the best of it
To live on other means
To fill my utter emptiness
With what my world will bring

And like a tree growing badly
My shape is bent, not true
And I am filled with loneliness
Cause I’m really missing you

Till one day, I sense something deep
You pull me close,
You want to stay at 18
But that will never do

I do not matter,
I say I do not even exist!
I cannot be this close
My hand becomes a fist

I run, I run away
From the shame and the guilt I feel
I believed the lies for so long
I do not know you’re real

But soon the tears start falling
I know I need you now
My ears are really open
I forsake all my vows

Broken, I can hear you
Broken, I can see
Broken, I can come back home
Broken, I can be

Life in 18 inches
Life so close to you
Life in all its colors
Life in you is true

And so, I make a new vow
To keep on coming to you
No matter what is happening
Even though I don’t know how

Life comes across 18 inches
We cannot deny the truth –
It is the distance of a whisper
My child, I love you

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About Paul Mulgrew

Paul Mulgrew
Paul Mulgrew lives in Sterling, Virginia with his very Italian wife of 28 years. Paul and Tina have two boys and three girls. He enjoys writing and teaching. Paul first came to Christ in college, through the witness of his wife when they were "just friends." He came into the freedom journey through a ministry of his local church, and is excited to make his contribution to the work of freedom. Paul also enjoys hiking, and he is a bike commuter year round.

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